Received a very bad news today.


My Uncle had pass away.. It happened all too sudden, without any warning.
He pass on peacefully in his sleep, at the age of 52.


Took 2 days leave and left for Malaysia to attend his funeral.



大舅，Why did you left us so early? Your sudden passing left everyone dumfounded and heartbroken. Especially your parents and family. I'm sorry that I couldn't send you off your last journey, I'm guilty for not visiting you often.


Your passing made me realised how fragile life is... 珍惜眼前人。Cherish the ones you loved before they are gone.


I kept thinking of you and I'm still trying to digest the fact that you are gone... just like that. I am still very stunned.


Why is it that the next time I visit you would be in the memorial park instead of you in person?


Life is just so unpredictable.



大舅，一路走好。。。永远怀念。

You will always be missed by us... R.I.P

First,

I would like to wish all a Happy New Year. May the year 2011 be a good year ahead. :)

In a blink of an eye, my little bubble has turned 20 months old, turning 2 years old in 4 months time. Time pass by faster than you can ever imagine.

In a blink of an eye, I've been working for 2 months. Work wise, so far so good and I hope this can be my permanent job. Everything was fine... except for some issues...

I hope the year 2011 will be a better year for me.

New year, new start.

And I live one more day.


CAN YOU JUST FUCKING STOP YAKKING NON-STOP?!

CAN'T YOU JUST STOP?!

I DON'T WANT TO CURSE AND SWEAR AT YOU!

IF YOU DIDN'T START OPENING YOUR MOUTH, NONE OF THESE SHIT WILL START!

STOP PUSHING THE BLAME!

FUCK IT!

IT'S ALWAYS YOU AND YOUR MOUTH!

YOU SHOULD FUCKING REFLECT ON YOURSELF TOO!

FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!

FUCKING ANGRY!!!

ARGH!!!!!


Didn't blog for quite some time.

Because I am working during the day and have to attend to my little bubble at night. By the time he went to bed, I am so wiped out that I went to sleep.

Sleeping time is very precious for me now, or else I will doze off in front of the pc during work. I cannot afford to stay up late like how I used to.

Ever since my little bubble went to childcare, he had lost weight and to make things worst, he refused to drink milk from the bottle. But he still doesn't know how to use a cup yet. Had to spoon feed him, and it's very tiring and requires alot of patience. Imagine I have to spoon feed 240ml of milk to him one mouthful at a time. It's no joke man.

And his temper had become so bad and keep throwing tantrum. The way he throws tantrum is totally like a spoiled child, especially when he was at Granny's house. That's beside the point, what I'm worry the most is that he is too stress, as in he is still young and going to childcare he will thought that we dump him and he suppress his feelings and and when he's home, he vent all his unhappiness by throwing tantrum.

And he is super sticky to Aunty Mama and me now, always wanted us to carry him. He used to love walking around when we went downstairs but not now. Alot of things changed ever since he went to childcare.

I keep wondering is it too early to enrol him? Is it too hard for him? But 工作不等人, job offer came first, if not I will probably wait till he is older then enrol him.

Poor boy, lost so much weight and always so tired.

But there's always pros and cons,

Pros are he is learning to self feed, knows how to interact/play with the neighbour's kids(though he still doesn't know how to talk yet), hands dirty must wash. I can't say he is independent yet but at least he did learn something, like when his bottle drop he wil pick it up and put it on the table; open the cupboard; and close it before he went off; sometimes even keep his toys when we asked him to.

Cons are get sick easily; meal time(if refuse to eat, that's your problem kind)teachers there are not like us, plenty of time to coax and coax them to eat; cry, just let them cry; nap time, they have timing, when time is up have to wake up. Not like when at home, can sleep longer, that's why he always so tired when he came home.

It's so heartbreaking to see him in childcare, he was the youngest in toddler class and alone without his family, like so damn poor thing.

[Sigh] Hope he will get used to it asap. My concern now was how to make him drink milk once again? How to make him gain his weight back?

My poor little bubble.

Took off today to look after B.Bee, he is down with mild fever, cough and flu.

His flu was so bad that he was having running nose and watery eyes, as if he was crying. At times, he even teared. Had a hard time sleeping too as he doesn't want to lie down, blocked nose is giving him a hard time. :(

So, he didn't went to childcare for two days and Mummy couldn't take any more off days so I have to.

Speaking of childcare, so far so good. Class is small and I hope it will stay this way, B.Bee is the youngest in toddler class. But the only problem is he doesn't want to eat.

Maybe he is still not use to the food given, they gave him rice. Omg, he haven't even started having rice at home, haha. But when they gave him porridge, he finish it.

Hope he will recover soon.


Started work on Monday, and today was my third day.

Tired and sleepy. So much so that I KO almost immediately, after B.Bee was asleep.

Always nearly dozed off in front of the pc.

It's just the third day, many more to come.

Hope Cuiwen won't kill me, I've got serious short term memory loss. Haha.

Although she almost did, today. Hehe.

B.Bee will be going to childcare this coming Monday. I am kinda worried, and 舍不得。

I am worried that he will be "sticky" to me anymore since I am working now.

I hope he will still be. =(







A child is a bell of mindfulness, reminding us how wonderful life is.


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