i used to think that money isn't everything, but there's a saying that goes ‘钱不是万能的，但是没钱是万万不能。’

and it's really applied to real life. in the past, i would thought that money isn't everything because i lived only for myself, as in, i do not need to worry about anything yet. no money? just stay at home like a parasite. refused to work and being lazy.

now that i have a child, money to me are practically everthing. not being money-faced but raising a child not only do you need TLC and patience, it invloved money too, lots of it. raising a child is a long time investment.

my life now, a SAHM. and i love it though i'm deprived of sleep. i enjoyed looking after my ikssy though it can be very tiring.

but i need to work to support my son, i want him to have a better life BUT not to the extend of spoiling him and he grows up to be a spoilt brat. i hope i can do it. seriously. no one, absolutely no one, not even my parents nor husB(then bf) are able to give me this motivation to not be a parasite of the society. only my son are able to give me this motivation to want to go out, work hard and earn money back.

exclude my parents, husB is the only one working, i really don't know whether or not he can last long in this current job but i know depend on him alone is not enough. think i might enroll ikssy in childcare next year so that i can go to work.

on a happier note, i'm so proud of my son. he knows how to 'clap' and 'pat'. although he can't really 'clap' and 'pat' on his own but he knows which word are for which actions. it's not coincidence, i just found out today. i'll let him sit on my laps, and when i say: "clap your hands", he will hold both my hands with that little hands of his and clap. and when i say: "pat your laps", he will hold my hands and pat his laps and he seems to be so happy. yes, i think that i had trained him unknowingly because i always hold his hands and clap out of boredom. and the patting thingy is from the children show 'Little Einsteins' where in the show they always encouraged their young viewers to pay their laps with them to make the red rocket fly faster. so, i also hold his hands and pat, also out of boredom. and to distract him from getting impatient. i guess he picks it up from here.

might be going to tiong bahru plaza tomorrow with sissy and rayzin to have our hair cut. i'm sad, my super long hair which i love it very much will be gone. but i've got no other choice because have not been cutting my hair for more than a year! gosh. split ends and damaged hair ends. so, my long hair has got to go~

hopefully it will grow longer by CNY'10.

p/s: i hope to have baby no.2 ... 3 .............. 4? in a few years time. BUT husB says the very maximum is 3. =(

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